i fell asleep after posting the last entry about starting the day. almost went in the pool but we recieved a thunderstorm warning for a thunderstorm that never came.

i need to find patience with my mother.

its 4:39 am and I haven't been to bed yet so i'm just going to start the new day. the dawn is rising and the birds are chirping and the gym opens at 5

I've been feeling OK lately. The pool is almost ready to go. I think I'm going to try to clean it every morning, early morning, as part of my routine. Its sort of meditative, vacumming the pool, so it would be a good early morning routine. e'll see. Its been years since I've actually cleaned the pool myself. But it was easy. The only think I didn't know what to do is read the pressure on the filter and what to do ifit wasn't right. Its a bit muggy today and warm. Its supposed to thunderstorm tonight and bring in cool air. Hope so.

there's nothing to say

sometimes when i hear a bluejay just right, it takes me back to my childhood. One of my firt memories is the sound of a bluejay calling in the early morning or late afternoon. I think its a bluejay anyway. I could be another bird. But I heard it today and it brought me back to that time, when I was young and careferee and outside every day. nice.

Its almost 4 am and i am just now starting to fall asleep. I think I'll go to bed.

MORE RAIN ON GOLF DAY. I NEED RAIN GEAR.

I had to skip manager tools tonight its already 2:30. I was watching Anthony Bourdain in Tuscany and in Greece and I was struck by my constant struggle for the shangrila life of those places that I give myself. I was struck by the fact that I struggle for that yet I have all the opportunity for it at my fingertips and my only blockage to it is myself. Well, no more! I think I might actually embrace life after all. I think my epiphany has come. I think -- weshall see if it stays when I try to wake up in the morning. We'll see how well I embrace the day.

well, i woke up in plenty of time but stayed in bed until the last possible moment again today. and its soooo beautiful out and now i have to go to work :(

so...work tomorrow. will i be able to put in a whole day of work plus workout plus life? we shall see. timlin in -- and homeruns fly..sigh

its pretty cool outside. I'm told none heard me snore last night, which would be an amazing, amazing thing. Maybe it was because I had both windows open and the cool air that came in allowed me to breathe for once. Theres a lonely little plane flying around outside. I love to hear the small planes go by during the day and night.

tomorrow is the last day of my vacation. i've only started accomplishing things. I just cleaned out my old gym bag and threw it out and some of the workout notes in there were from 2002, gawd. and no improvements.

another thing i've dug up is my old delphi xm radio and a speaker system. about the time i bought the speaker system -- about 3 years ago?? -- i stopped subscribing to the xm. now that i found this stuff should I resubscribe? should I try to sell it? should I just toss it?. i don't think i can jsut sell the radio because it was somehoe registered that if you're not me you can't use it or something. I don't really need it. I'm trying to think of a caase where I could use it becase I don't think selling it is an option. I remember always hving a problem with finding a signam even though i have it southeast side of the house which is where the satellite is.

Fitness works for coaching.

Coach directs like a daily fitness routine -- fitness for the mind.

It would be pretty sweet if the Nashua Pride gave a contract to Dougie. But would he take it?

I have nothing to say.

Its midnight and I'm hungry. But there's nothing easy and quick and warm to eat. There really is nothing else to say.

I'm not ashamed.

I need to build up my network base.
I need to prepare a resume.
You never know.

Does School of Rock EVER END????

I hate going anywhere on my day off. I hate having to move from my house. But today I have to go to a party at my boss's house and i just don't want to get dressed and get out to do it. Its a big waste of my day to relax.

I have to hit the gym today and start that going. I meet with my PT Tuesday after a long hiatis.